you know that feeling when you thought that someone likes you when they don't? That moment of joy so quickly followed by the realisation that you have been mistaken? Not just that, there is also the realisation that they do not now, nor ever could find you attractive. And then the small step towards realising that that is because you are not attractive.
Then you see yourself though their eyes for just a minute and you are suddenly horrified.
Of course, you say, that is how it is. How could I ever have been so myopic that I could have thought otherwise. And then you realise that this is not the first time you have made this mistake, and that there will be more times. Because you do not see yourself as you really are.
Sometimes, hidden inside the shell of your head, you imagine that you are beautiful.
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