Friday, October 3, 2008

Wish me luck.

I am going away with myself to finish it. It is all about me and I am nervous about the time I will spend in my own company.

Not all of it will be enjoyable. I will tear myself apart and it will manifest in quite a physical way. I will indulge in self loathing and compulsively masturbate till even I cannot bear to touch myself. The work will be done, but the private pain of it will be ugly and perhaps I will not be my friend any longer when I emerge, blinking blind from the burrowing into myself.

The writing of memoir.

The crawling into and up my own anus.

The horrible self-important self reflection. The deconstruction of the I.

Two weeks away with myself. Wish me luck and cross your fingers that I will return.

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